Merin, I miss you. And as I pace the hall in the middle of the night trying to calm our little Ysa, to lul her back to sleep I can't help but wonder if I'm doing as you would. What am I doing wrong that I can't get her to sleep in the night? What should I do? How would you do it? How I wish you were here, or at least you could tell me what I should do. She is such a happy baby that when she cries it tears at my heart. I'm tying to be strong. For you, for me, for my family. Its just so hard some times.