19.9.10

Sunday's

Sundays are hard days for me. We get up, shower all the kids so everyone can be at their Sunday best. Aubrie and Deacon get ready first, next is Ysa. This is when it starts to get hard. Dolling her up is so fun but it tugs on my heart. How Merin would love to be here to watch her grow. To tell her baby how pretty she looks for church. To giggle over all her growing rolls as she kicks in the tub. I miss my sister. I miss her smile, and constant encouragement. There is simply no one to take her place in my life. Not that I would wish that. Its just that there is a hole now. A hole in my life, and it hurts. It's sad, but I feel strength in every one's prayers and kind words. Thank you for your support.

15 comments:

H and E said...

I always want to comment on your beautiful words, you express yourself so well. I want to say the right thing, the perfect thing. But then I realize there is no perfect thing to say. So I will say that I love you, I think you are strong and beautiful and Merin is proud of you for the mother you are to Ysa.

BarbaraJo said...

You are such a strength and great example to us all. God bless you and your beautiful family.

Anonymous said...

My darling Eden:
I know no words can take away the pain of losing your dear Merin. No words can fill the hole in your life, in your heart. I lost my sister Elsie in January of this year. She was an extension of my own sould, the fire beneath my own spirit and the part of my heart that is gone forever. I, too, know we will be reunited in the Kingdom of our Heavenly Father. Try and take a bit of solace in that.

Thelma

Anonymous said...

Eden,

You don't know me, I found out about your sister's terrible accident on the news here in Calgary and was moved by your family's strength and love during a time of unbearable sadness. I want you to know that even though I don't know you personally, I think about you and your family a lot and I pray for continued strength and comfort in your life.
Krista

Sara and Dustin said...

That must be unbelievably difficult. I think it takes a very strong, special person to be asked to go through all this. You are an incredible person. Isn't it wonderful that Ysa is still here to have these experiences with her mortal body? We're still praying for you.

Veronica said...

You don't know me either, but I'm Suzy's sister-in-law, and I just wanted you to know you're in my prayers.

Niki Carter said...

I really love that picture of the two of you. How I wish that I lived close to you and I could be there for you in that way. You can do hard things . . . Love you!

Cheri Litchfield said...

My beautiful girls. I love you.

Anna said...

I can't even imagine how hard every day is for you, but I'm amazed that you do it - and I'm sure, you do it so well! Ysa is so blessed to have you! What a sweet picture of you & Merin! We love you all! You're always in our thoughts & prayers!

Shani said...

All my love, Eden. All of it.

Miles asked Daylan what he could do, and somehow Oreo cookies came up. If you haven't yet - check your mailbox :)

nita.armstrong@gmail.com said...

thinking of you and your family Eden. Wish i could be there to help, or give you a big hug at least! I'm sure that Merin is so grateful to have you as a sister, and a mom to her precious baby. love to you, :)

Anonymous said...

Eden,

You don't know me either. I read about the terrible accident in the news and have been thinking of you and your family often. Your strength and family love moves me to tears. Ysa is very fortunate to have such a wonderful family. My prayers are with you. Your blog and your beautiful photographs are such a tribute to your little sister. Merin was so loved.
Ruth

Jill said...

You are so amazing Eden. Truthfully these pictures are hard to look at. But I do, over and over again knowing this is reality now. However, I can't help but think she can see how pretty Ysa looks for church and her growing rolls. No doubt there is a guardian angel with you now. XOXO

Lindsay said...

Eden, I've thought about you and Merin so much over the last few weeks. And having moments with my own sisters recently has caused me to appreciate them more. I have thought a lot about what role Merin will play in Ysa's life, and I'm sure that our loving Heavenly Father has prepared for a way for her to be involved. I'm sure that many miracles are awaiting. My thoughts are prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

Dear Eden,

You don't know me but I feel as though I should let you know how you've touch my life. I was deeply saddened when I heard about the horrific accident. I was heartbroken for this little baby girl left without her beautiful and loving parents. There was a grey cloud over me. I have a little baby myself and I thought about my baby being left in that situation. Then I heard that Merin had the most wonderful sister and brother-in-law that would love and cherish this little bundle like their own and I had hope again. Grey cloud was gone. You are an amazing sister and mother. I don't know you but I know that Merin loved you so much. You don't know me but you've changed my life. God bless you and your beautiful family.