I miss you Mer. I just want to talk. I don't need to see you, or hear your voice but if you could just listen. I often feel that you can...Christmas Eve was so much harder than I thought it would be. We missed you and Mike. I can't even tell you how much it hurt to walk to your grave site that night. It felt so wrong. So wrong that your beautiful body should be resting below that very ground. We all missed you. But I felt so much comfort that you have Mike by your side. That you are together still. As we sang "Families can be together forever" I knew once again how true that is. That night as I stuffed Ysa's stocking I felt your smile. Is that possible? And can you believe how much Ysa is changing? She is trying to sit on her own. Everyday she gets better at it. I can actually see her trying to find her center! And this morning when I left the bedroom she cried for me. She loves me. I cant even put into words how much that little cry meant to me. We love her so much. Merin, she is such a sweet baby. I miss you. I Love you. I hope you hear me. And know how true these feeling are.
your big sister.