9.2.11

Letting go

Last week Deacon's Language Arts school work book came home. He is in grade two. His entry dated November 15 2010 really touched me. Deacon is a very sensitive boy (a quality that I LOVE in him) and so I was really surprised that he hasn't wanted to talk about the accident at all. Not one word. This journal entry is the first time he has shared his thoughts on the subject. It's not a lot but I think its beautiful. I have his permission to share it:

"Leting go."

"During summer vacation I had to let go of my Aunt and Uncle it was hard for everyone. About three years ago I had to let go of my old house it was espesholly hard for me because I had the biggest room in the house. I had to let go of my favorite stuffed animal I lost and can't seem to find it. I had to let go of two of my lego men I lost them."

This entry reminded me of all the things little ones have to let go of. And it's a lot. I had forgotten how hard it is to be little. To hold so many things dear to your heart. He is only 7. He's my little man. I hope that when he is ready to talk about the accident I will have the understanding that he needs. That he is waiting for.

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Eden:

Oh wow! You are right; it must be so hard to be little. I am reminded of this whenever I am with my granddaughter Davan. She is 3. I met Deacon when he was, maybe, 1 year old. Your mom was holding his and it was in the food court at Chinook mall. What a sweet boy, shy smile, tucked into "Grandy's" neck.

He will come to you when he is ready. Sign of a good mom----you are waiting for him to make the first move.

Thelma

Esther Beazer said...

That entry is so heart warming. He is so sweet eden! you are so blessed!

maria lang said...

i still can't believe that he is 7! growing up so fast. so many attributes of his remind me of my little aidan. such a sweet kid. we love him!

Cheri Litchfield said...

I always am reminded of what a privilege it is to have the care of little people. It is a tender task - one that requires such care and attention, sometimes care and attention that we forget to give. This peek into Deacon's reality is lovely and honest. He is a wonderful, special child. A blessing for you - and you for him.

H and E said...

He truly is the sweetest 7 year old boy I know. What simple words that say so much! When he is ready to talk you will know just what to say, you are an amazing mom and it shows by what an amazing boy he is!

Shani said...

How special. He seems to be dealing in his own special way. Bless you for accepting his ways and respecting his space. What a blessed litte boy.

shanan said...

so special. so sweet.

Sara and Dustin said...

Thank you for sharing this, Eden. It's interesting how his writing shows how he's been working everything out in his mind. To me it shows how he's processing things - and it's so insightful! Doesn't it sound like the phrase "letting go" in these situations is so healthy, too?

It really hit me when you said how when you're little you hold so many things dear to your heart. It's so true. Something so little can mean so much them. I've been trying to be more sensitive when, to them, their whole world seems to be collapsing over what I see as not a big deal. I agree with everyone else - you are a good mom, Eden.

paula said...

what a prince. you are doing well eden.

Anonymous said...

What an amazing parent. I'm sure it's still very hard for you to work through this ordeal. Love and blessings coming your way from Toronto.

Jamie said...

Oh Eden, that's really beautiful. Thanks for sharing.

Lauren Jewel said...

I am writing a book about letting go. This is beautiful. It is so amazing to explore the many ways and the many stages in which each person must "let go". The little man is wise beyond his years!