There is something in the air today. I am not sure what it is but I'm having a sad day. There is a lump in my throat that I just can't seem to swallow. Perhaps it has something to do with my good friend moving back to the states tomorrow. Or even just seeing what I am missing as I watch other sisters together. But I miss my sister and wish so desperately that someone could just take this hurt away. So I am trying to keep busy, and not dwell but my mind keeps looping back to Merin. Maybe I will just allow myself to have a sad kinda day. I'll bake, and eat, and snuggle up with my girls...and hopefully tomorrow it won't be so hard.